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Have you ever had that feeling in your stomach... not so much like butterflies, but more so ...gut wrenching? It's like ...that feeling where you can't quite put your finger on it, but you know something just isn't right?
That something stays in the back of your mind. Then, sooner or later ...it disappears. You're out here living life, enjoying things or going through the motions... and then, BOOM! It reappears. That weird feeling that you couldn't quite put your finger on is now more clear than ever. That feeling is discernment.
I always thought maybe I just had this certain magic about me that had been passed down... it felt like I maybe... had special powers or something. But no... I realized quickly that, that feeling was more so me having the ability to judge well. A lot of times we ignore that feeling. We want to give people and things the benefit of a doubt.
Simple phrases like:
"They wouldn't do ME like that!"
"They mean well though!"
"Well.. you know, they have been though a lot."
"Maybe it's just me overthinking?!"
"I could be wrong..."
"That's just how they are."
We tell ourselves these things hoping that everything will just... well, work itself out. When in all actuality. We've been had that gut wrenching feeling. That feeling like we already know this isn't any good for us. When my mother first passed, a few years back, I was in a fog. I couldn't really tell who was on my side and who meant well. I wanted to give everybody the benefit of a doubt. But as time passed I realized that maybe I was right about things all along.
My mother had a strong intuition and she'd tell me right away who was no good for me and who was. I never understood it until I grew older. Many friends had become foes and the boys I had dated were exactly who she said they were. At that time I felt like NOBODY could feel my pain nor did they care. The grief roller coaster took me for a spin and in the midst of a loop, and right before the big drop, I thought to myself... maybe it's just me and not them. But what was the reason?! What was the reason I couldn't see the bigger picture?! Is it because I didn't want to? Is it because I was grieving? Was I being selfish by ignoring family members calls? Was I being a butthole to "friends" who had never really comforted me during the times in which I really needed it?
Looking back now, I know the reason. I didn't trust myself. I didn't trust whether or not I knew what was best for me or what I was doing. I no longer had my human compass around to guide me. She too was buried with fear and doubt, but the one thing she always did, was observe. She was just another woman learning her way around the world and as she learned those hard life lessons, she'd pour them back into me.
There's times where I think about what she said. All the things & situations she'd warn me about. I actually hold those words close to my heart. Those words of wisdom let me know that I should trust my instincts. They let me know that I DO have discernment. They let me know that I should treat it as a gift. I should cherish it and never misuse it. People come and go in our lives. I guess maybe if we understood that those people aren't always meant to stay forever, then we'd act like we know ...and move on. It's hard to let go of people that you once had good times with or memories that’ll never fade. But in life, there's levels... and maybe if we could just get past this hump, on the roller coaster... then, just maybe we could soar to the next one!
As we know, a zebra doesn't change it's stripes and a snake will always size you up. SO, In the words of Dr. Maya Angelou "the great":
"When people show you who they are... believe them!”
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